Is Life Really this Cruel?
Could it really be happening after all we have been through? Am I miscarrying? Or is this light bleed just one of those things that some women go through? Is this weird sensation I am feeling a miscarriage or is it wind? Am I feeling stabbing pains that is my baby dying or is it my uterus stretching? Am I feeling pain? No, just discomfort.
Would life be so cruel that the evening before I am meant to go for my heart beat scan I miscarry my baby?
I don't know what to do. Do I go to emergency and tell them I think I am miscarrying even though I am not in any pain? Will they just send me home to wait it out? Will I have to sit in the uncomfortable chairs waiting for our turn, getting more tired and uncomfortable? Is it just better to wait it out at home in my bed, where I can cry myself to sleep?
I feel sick to my stomach thinking that we have gotten so close, yet we are still so far away. I feel sick that our little one put up such a fight to come and meet us, but my stupid body couldn't help make it happen. I feel sick that my baby will end up in a toilet or a bin and not in my arms.
Yep I think life is very cruel!
I am sick of this roller coaster! When can I get off and enjoy one of the nice, fun rides?
Would life be so cruel that the evening before I am meant to go for my heart beat scan I miscarry my baby?
I don't know what to do. Do I go to emergency and tell them I think I am miscarrying even though I am not in any pain? Will they just send me home to wait it out? Will I have to sit in the uncomfortable chairs waiting for our turn, getting more tired and uncomfortable? Is it just better to wait it out at home in my bed, where I can cry myself to sleep?
I feel sick to my stomach thinking that we have gotten so close, yet we are still so far away. I feel sick that our little one put up such a fight to come and meet us, but my stupid body couldn't help make it happen. I feel sick that my baby will end up in a toilet or a bin and not in my arms.
Yep I think life is very cruel!
I am sick of this roller coaster! When can I get off and enjoy one of the nice, fun rides?
posted by end_result | 11:43 PM
3 Comments:
In your instance I really hope that life is NOT cruel for you. If you feel the need to go to the hospital then go, even if you just get a beta test to make you feel better.
Thinking of you and yeah, hope life's not picking on you today :(
Cat
oh darls - this is just too cruel, so No it cannot be happening. I hope you are okay. How did you go today? Whatever happens we will be there for you, but we hope and pray that your little fighter keeps on fighting. Go little bubby go.
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